Gum-iliating moments

Traumara

"everyone had had humiliating moments"

I am a total gum addict, My first period summer teacher had no gum rule. During one class, I need minty freshness gum, so I decided to sneak some gum anyway. I was siting next to my friend in the front row, and she whispered something hilarious to me. I laughed and my gum flew right into my weave hair. I tried to discreetly pull it out, but it was struck bad. My teacher was so not happy, everyone tried to get it out. But it was ready in there and I refused to let them cut it out! so they had to call my mom and yup I had to call my mom to the rescue in high school.

Love, Channy \m/_

Quote

Hi everyone,

I want share with you 

I found this, I like it and do you like it? 

Love, Channy \m/_

What is it to be deaf?

 Hi Everyone!

I'm thinking about myself and wrote poem about "what is it to be deaf?" I hope anyone trade to my life compare your? maybe you will understand what is it to be deaf?" like you or everyone have same issue and being human.

"What is it like to be deaf?"

people have asked me.

Deaf? Oh, hmm... how do I explain that?

Simple: I can't hear.

No, wait... it is much more than that.

It is similar to a goldfish in a bowl,

Always observing things going on.

People talking at all times.

It is like a man on his own island

Among foreigners.

Isolation is no stranger to me.

Relatives say hi and bye

But I sit for 5 hours among them

Taking great pleasure at amusing babies

Or being amused by TV.

Reading books, resting, helping out with food.

Natural curiosity perks up

Upon seeing great laughter, crying, anger.

Inquiring only to meet with a "Never mind" or

"Oh, it's not important".

Getting a summarized statement

Of the whole day.

I'm supposed to smile to show my happiness.

Little do they know how truly miserable I am.

People are in control of language usage,

I am at loss and really uncomfortable!

Always feeling like an outsider

Among the hearing people,

Even though it was not their intention.

Always assuming that I am part of them

By my physical presence, not understanding

The importance of communication.

Facing the choice between Deaf Event weekend

or a family reunion.

Facing the choice between the family commitment

And Deaf friends.

I must make the choices constantly,

Any wonder why I choose Deaf friends???

I get such great pleasure at the Deaf clubs,

Before I realize it, it is already 2:00 am,

Whereas I anxiously look at the clock

Every few minutes at the Family Reunion.

With Deaf people, I feel so normal,

Our communication flows back and forth.

Catch up with little trivials, our daily life,

Our frustration in the bigger world,

Seeking the mutual understanding,

Contented smiles and laughter are musical.

So magical to me,

So attuned to each other's feelings.

True happiness is so important.

I feel more at home with Deaf people

Of various color, religion, short or tall.

Than I do among my own hearing relatives.

And you wonder why?

Our language is common.

We understand each other.

Being at loss of control

Of the environment that is communication,

People panic and retreat to avoid

Deaf people are like the plague.

But Deaf people are still human beings

With dreams, desires, and needs

To belong, just like everyone else.

Love, Channy \m/_

countdown to confidence!

Your life: Countdown to confidence


"Everyone keep telling you to start the year off strong" here's how

Your 5- day plan

1 Day- list your strengths jot down fine thing you like about yourself(suck as how you're a great friend) then put the list inside the front cover of note boo for instant boost each day.

2 Day- set an easy goal for the first eek of school or work like sign up for do something fitness excerise or else, chorus mini accomplishment help  you realize that bigger ones like snagging a part in the school or work.  really are within read

3 Day-  get a mani with mom or grab dad for pizza.
setting this thing time with the mind with your family always behind you this will give strength  one classes or work start and thing get totally stressful.

4 Day- Say like least
Practice talking to a mirror, try not to say um or like: speak in a loud.clear ton, and keep your shoulder back. When you talk like you believe in yourself, people will begin to take you more seriously.

5 Day- say thankful
just three thing you're grateful for and each night, odd three more. focus on thing that make you happy teaches you to think postivily and feel good, Which is the key to real confidence.


Love, Channy \m/_

Will be right back!

Hello everyone!

I'm sorry and I will be right back on this blogger, I'll miss you xoxo!

I'm going to go away on vacation right now , I'm going to try  to get away from the phone,computer etc.
I won't forget I will continuing on my blogger soon! I'll post soon!.

Love, Channy \m/_

ASL lesson

hi everyone!

ASL Lesson!

I always muttering myself to hurry walk fast to go bathroom in mall,office,school also everywhere, same time using my sign language "bathroom" everyone kept stare me and wondering what it is or what I said either? LOL 

Some people use a twisting movement instead of the side to side shake.  Either is fine.

If you are talking about ASL (American Sign Language), then the entire sentence for "I have to go to the bathroom" in ASL can be used by merely using the one word sign for 'bathroom'.

1. This sign is made by using a 'T' handshape with your dominant hand. Using the 'T' handshape, you hold it in the air, about as high as your chest area.

1a. Hold your hand / the sign about 4 - 6 inches away from your chest/body area and from your wrist, simply shake the 'T' handshape.

In essence, you are 'just' signing the sign 'Bathroom' (or 'toilet'), but the rest of the sentence "I have to go to the _____" are all already understood with the context of your facial expression(s) and possible dance motions. 

Love,channy \m/_

Change your label

"One mean insult can feel like it defines you "

Let me explains that how you see yourself is totally up to you.

At some point, we all end up on the receiving end of an awful insult. Maybe you're called the fat as your body, mature or zit face after a major breakout. it doesn't matter if  it's a joke or how hard you laugh it off- other people's taunts have a way of invading our minds, so each time we look in the mirror, it's like we're holding a magnifying  glass to our imperfections and they become all we see

Unfortunately, even as we out grow our labels the damage has been done and we can still let them define us. you might not even realize it, but these labels could be holding you back from doing what you really what to do. Maybe you act shy in class or a little timid around guys because somewhere inside you like the zit face that no one wants to talk to (even if your skin has clean for years!)
when you're internalized the label, it hurt you over and over.

So just like you'd never be caught dead using your first "screen name" ____________
it's time to unload those other labels that no longer define you and coming up with ones represent you now,the next time you find yourself not saying what you really want to say or avoiding eye contract with the hot guy at Starbuck because you still feel like a girl who isn't pretty enough or perfect enough realize that you get choose who you are from now on

"this month's goal"

I vow to change the labels other gave me and replace them with positive ones.

How to do it: create labels that you like come up with ones that celebrate your favorite features and remind you of all the things you're capable of achieving. ( if you have trouble, ask friends for held then give her a few great labels in the return.)

Stop say literally- out loud when you start obsessing over a flaw instead focus on features you love and play them up embraces what make you feel unique.

Think gorgeous tape your best picture to your mirror when you see yourself looking hot everyday you'll atomically start to think of yourself way.

Live a little luxe- give yourself a manicure or splurge on earring or shopping that make you feel great threading yourself well will help you feel beauty you are and enjoy it.

My experience past: When I feel same thing make me feel hurt or insult etc.
"boney or skinny," that's everyone called me after eighth grade high school open tour trip had left my clothes been style creative. I love my gorgeous cute style now but because of that one word I spent years trying to tame them no matter. how I feel great I looked, I always saw myself as the girl with bad hair also great style clothes but not being skinny girl.

"WORDS"-short film

Hi everyone!!

I watched the "Words-" that's beautiful short film. "Words" is story about communicate their  conversation begins awkwardly but slowly appears to blossom into romance but the difference between silence. hope u watch and enjoy it.  share us with your thought about this "words" short film/

Psst! I love it and I'm fan of Russell Harvard!!!!! therefore he is so so handsome! am I crazy? maybe I but I know he is great actor!.


Love,Channy \m/_

Spring Day

On the first warm day of spring, you can't help fast-forwarding to the summer amazing head of you! maybe you have many planning in your mind like imagining trips to the beach with your friends or long with walk with special someone also make the selfie,photography for everywhere you took and remember that etc...
that's why I can't wait having planning on my summer vacation and pack the luggage ready to go!

There's something even more important you have to do. This summer, give yourself permission to be free from judgement even your own. All years you're surrounding by friends and parents who, even they through love you, have their own opinions of who are you should be. And so often put up our barriers that stop from us from being our true selves. you deserve  time to explore all the possibilities for who want to be. Don't start laying out plans, just make personal VOW to embrace the brave, bold, amazing girl you know you can be. HAVE FUN!!


Love, Channy \m/_

Awkward snitch

Welcome April!!!

Guess what? today is Happy April fool's day!!  by the way I decide to share with my real awkward snitch story.

The sitch: you have a major wardrobe fail in the work.

I couldn't sleep, so at 4-5 am I headed to the kitchen room for making breakfast.I figured the whole family sleep,so I didn't even bother getting dressed therefore I really exhausted and tired same time yawned contiune (want more sleep) I can't because I have to go work ugh. I walked in with my uggs slipper and pj's on ... Only to see my co-workers see abs didn't say anything about what I wear instead I pretended nothing was werid.  

Sometimes if you don't act like things are a big deal, they won't be. 

The snitch: you started sleeping in the work

After working for hours, I dozed off in the medical record office. Suddenly my supervisor shook me awake because I was drooling over my desk  it was mortifying to own it. So I apologized did lap around the office to stretch, and found another place to sit. There's no way I could have concentrated knowing the cutie I had just embarrassed myself in front everyone.

Have you have experience with " Awkward snitch?" share with us...xoxo!

Love,Channy \m/_

Thoughts of a Deaf Child

hello everyone!

I'm sorry I was so sick since two week ago! now I actually feel better much thank god it's over lol, by the way I want to share with you from my truly good friend who did wrote this poem reminder of myself I was child how I was left out in my family because I'm only deaf in the hearing family. And like to thank you my true good friend share with me and pass it out everyone. don't be left out yourself.

Thoughts of a Deaf Child

My family knew that I was deaf

When I was only three, and since then fifteen years ago

Have never signed to me.

I know when I’m around the house,

I try and use my voice,

It makes them feel more comfortable;

For me, I have no choice.

I try, communicate their way-

Uncomfortable for me.

My parents wouldn’t learn sign

Ashamed or apathy?

I never cared about the sound of radios and bands;

What hurts me most is, I never heard

My parents’ signing hands.

Love,Channy \m/_

Are you love braid your hair?

when was the last time you braided your hair ?

Braids are the best thing ever! 

I think the last time I actually were braids of any kinds was back in middle school, I do remember everyday morning my mom did to my hair before I go to school. 

I was thinking that's silly braid ever but not I wore 'em all times.

Until I got older, I guess I started looking at braids as more for kids and move on to ponytail,buns and French twist etc...

Now I see, though in part to a series of young adult movies,YouTube video, at public mall I like said oh that's pretty braid hair blah....

I like any braids because 

1. They don't give me a headaches 

2. They're fairly easy to do braids like less minutes, very simple 

3. I don't have worry to messy hair again 

4. Show everyone that braids hair is classical,boho,feminine,hairstyle.  

Stopping for gas

I never forget my embarrassment moment!

Stopping for gas

I live in the same neighborhood as my crush. One day  I got off the school bus from my high school, thinking that I was last one to leave and that no one was behind me, I hadn't eaten lunch that day, and when I don't eat enough I get really bad gas. So as I began walking  down the street toward home  I let out long, super loud fart. Same time I wore hearing aids and heard someone behind me so clearing same time I feel funny that someone behind me and his face expressing like surprise  and his action were try rid of smell fart same time he feel awkward so am I too. Sound embarrassment, I froze when I finally the courage then got to turn around, I discovered that my crush war about three feet behind me and  he had heard the whole thing and smell it I was totally mortified!

think you're the one to completely humiliate herself ? think again.      


Love,Channy \m/_

I'm different

Dear: Dairy

Sometimes I always thinking of myself what everyone notices me that I'm different than others also I decide to write on my poem expressing from what I feeling.....

You're saying.......

I'm different than you, mom.......

I'm different than my old friend, everyone.....

I wish I had a best friend but my best friend who understands that, 

who I am being of.........

I'm unique different person that you're saying........

Love to be UNIQUE

DIFFERENT!

Love,Channy \m/_

Valentine's Day Outfit

Hi sexy chichas,

Sorry to late put on  the post, I'm been busy with my boyfriend and hope you all had a nice weekend.
Like I mentioned about Valentine's day and I made simply outfit causal dress for Valentine's Day
for look one I wanted something chic,cute and sophisticated. This outfit is perfect for my style fashion, who need go to out or to hot date in the evening.

When I arrived home from work and the most amazing outfit match all pink from head to toes therefore waiting for my boyfriend at evening, ready go out for our date.

Happy Valentine's Day

Deaf-Mute girl will warm your heart!

This romantic short film titled "A Silent Melody" had been produced by actor Sundeep Kishan (remember Sawan in the movie Shor in the City). Considering It's Valentine's week, the film will surely strike a chord with everyone!. Hope you enjoy and like this 10 min short film and watch too.

Happy Valentine's day

Love,Channy \m/_

Night of Romances

Whether you're spending with it with your guy or your amazing group of friends to spend the love for  $$ with these creative if u can afford expensive or less either.

Don't forget, Valentines day is coming and you can make the special day memorable and rekindle the romance week later or next year

Love is in the air the week with hot and cold Valentine's day  approaching, so Grab here's

Options with a Guy..............

1.  Go to an observatory of a planetarium
2. Cook a steak, soufflés also dinner
3. Get nosebleed seat at a hockey games
4. Take a winter hike together
5.  Throw broad- Games night
6. Go for a drive
7. Walk a animal from local shelter or walk with your own dog for go out walking.
8. Go to the Flea Market
9. Attend a poetry reading 
10. Go sledding or ice skate
11. Visit a cool museum
12. Buy the book of question or nice novel book also reading together each other
13. Learn to dance (salsa etc..) or take dance lesson class
14. Renting a movies
15. Play kinect games on dance  
16. Have an indoor picnic
17. Go to nice place just for appetizers and desserts include bar
18. make video or short film 
19. exchange small gifts
20. custom make nice t-shirts

With a amazing friend,,,,,

1. Have a slumber party
2. Make cake/cupcakes or dinner
3. Throw a Karaoke night (sing out loud)
4. go out for ice cream or chill out
5. make a "DIY" you can enjoy with something
6. Reading your predict love games 
7. Throw a gloss/ gossip party 
8. Throw play the truth or dare game
9. Design Jewelry with unquiet stones beads bracelet
10. Write sweet letters or poem
11. Go to club or bar for have single good times
12. Go to shopping mall,make up haul
13. Go to Spa
14. play kinect game on the dance 
15. enjoy the paint 
16. make the picture and decorate for memory night
17. Go to movies or renting movies
18. Go to Bowling
19. Go to ice skate or ski etc
20. make video or short film 
21. exchange small gifts
22. take dance lesson for pole or salsa etc

Have a blast for Valentine's day! enjoy your day. 

Love, Channy \m/_

The fire alarm

Traumarama!

Everyone has had humiliating moments.


I never forget in my college humiliating moment past, The fire alarm will will burn you
One night I woke up to the fire alarm, So I freaked out and ran outside, Everyone else had thought to grab a jacket but There I was in my tank and boy-short turn out fire drills happen all time in the dorm I realize that's my embrassment and glad with my other friend who live across over opposite the door in dorm, she let me share with her warm blanket. I learned my lesson next time be ready to prepare take jacket,coat or wear warm clothes.

Are you in college student? and so be ready!!!

Love, Channy \m/_

Change your inner soundtrack in your head.

It's time to press "stop" or "pause" on the negative  though like " I'm not thin enough" or  I'm not beautiful" image expert myself to tell you how.

Have you ever gotten a song stuck? watch movie romantic? and TV show? ( a song stuck in your head? ) like the last song your listened it or watched move/TV on your iPhone/iPod/TV on the way  to school, work and home, you feel want to dance in your mind before you knew it that you're sing it the  entire day.

Well a lot of times we're stuck with a different kind of noise play over and over in our head. it's a negative voice telling you that you're aren't pretty or thin enough! sometime it can be so powerful that it make you're unworthy or that you can't do anything right. (how many times a day do you say to yourself often? I'm not good enough or  I don't deserve this) and slowly  over think that negative  song it all you can hear or see. maybe it had become such a regular part of your life. like the background music at mall that you don't even realize it's there nagging  your with the through that if your body were better, your life would be better. that's how destructive the voice be.

Next, how you can start to sing a different tune or express your self esteem feeling?  first you have to release all of those repetitive phrase stuck in your head. Write them down on the big sheet paper  or a few sheet paper  then rip them up now! 

Next begin to replace negative image in your life, swap the "thin-spration" photo or "beautiful-spration" photo people you admire from what they done in the life, Not necessary for what they look like.

Finally, I start to speak more positively about myself. what i doing so far? and you'll begin to feel more positively in your life. but you have to keep at it.  Continue to replace to nasty "songs" with more soothing ones until they stick. (just don't beat yourself up if a few sneak through) 

Well you can make your goal:

I promise to : be come aware of all the negative songs I keep replaying in my head.
So I will : become writing on my own book, journal and create expressing poem, song, make a mix of CD or program songs on your iPod  that remind you how fabulous you really are!, pick only those songs  make you want to dance,feeling happy, good mood also sing out aloud!!!!

blessing yourself

                      Love, Channy \m/_