Inside

My poem is

"Inside"

Bottle up inside are the word I never said,
The feeling that I hide the lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes
Read in on my face
Trapped inside are lies of the past I can't replaces.

With memories that linger won't seem to go away
Today's brand - new day
Yesterday are over
Even though the hurting's not nothing last forever
I must cherish what I've got
Don't take my love granted,

For soon it will be gone.
all you ever wanted of the love thought you'd won
The hurt I'm feeling now won't disappear overnight
But someday. somehow everything will turn out all right
No more wishing for the past. It wasn't meant to be,
It didn't seem to last so I have to set free.

Love,Channy \m/_

Real Woman

I did write my own song by myself about expressing being of woman also it's about reputation for general woman to be real strong,self-esteem, pride, include who are you!. I hope you enjoy and watch this video and like it winks!!


There is ASL Video and My lyric here:

Strong black
Beautiful woman
Laid back
I got your back
I'm a real woman
I'm a woman
I'm a woman

Looking in the mirror
Embracing all of me
Never did this before
Took me sometime
To be

The woman I've become
Giving more to myself
Almost lost my soul
Trying please somebody else

All my curves I embrace
Love the color of my skin
So much bigger than that
I love the person with thing
And I ain't had a joy in the while
Can you see it in my smile
Did you notice that
I know this -I'm woman

Strong black
Beautiful woman
Laid back
I got your back
I'm a real woman
I'm a woman
I'm a woman

Got my walk back
Keep hair looking, right
No longer insecure
Found the love of my life
Adding more to me
got my reason to live
Keep faith
I got so much to give

All my curves I embrace
Love the color of my skin
So much bigger than that
I love the person within
And I ain't had no joy in the while
Can you see it in my smile
Did you notice
that I know this -I'm a woman

Strong black
Beautiful woman
Laid back
I got your back
I'm a real woman
I'm a woman
I'm a woman

Thanks for watching!

Love,Channy \m/_

"I don't care"- 2ne1 (ASL Video)

 I decide to make music video for deaf community and sign language also "I don't care" by 2ne1 from Korea. I love this song so far remind me that I have hard time with guys and don't care about himself. I hope you enjoy my video and like it.

Thanks for watching!

Love,Channy \m/_

In loving memory of

In loving memory of my father, Paris! 

When I grew up without no father only I have single mom until she found new man in her life and remarried with man who did replace to be my step father. There is addition family and I have younger brother  It's joy and happiness family so far.

He was good handsome man, army, humor of sense, love to dance, confidence spoken, intelligent, love to care people to cherish. I'm happy have a father in my life.....

We love you and miss you and you will always be with us in our hearts

 Love, Channy \m/_

Good Grief

If someone you know dies, you usually have to let yourself hurt to heal. Here's help sorting through all of those feeling.

What to Expect:
"That day"

There's no "right"way to feeling when you get such bad news- you may suddenly sob, but you may also feel shock or numbness. It take some people a little longer to process a death and that's okay.

"The Funeral"

You're hurting and so is everyone around you at the funeral. But when you're all together, honoring the person you lost and allowing yourself to experience all the painful emotions. It actually begins the process that will ultimately make things better.

"The week that follow"

You may already mostly healed but for others, it take longer you might not be able to concentrate in yourself at the class, work or home. You might flip out on friends or anybody for no reason you might even have physical symptoms, like shortness of breath, or trouble sleeping anger, confusion, resentment of those who aren't suffering like you are- it's normal, so be patients with yourself and at this stage.

"A few month later"

Most people still miss the person terribly but the crushing griefs symptoms start to let up so if you're still distracted by your loss on a daily basis it may be time to talk to counselor, therapy or physcologist  who can help you figure out ways to go on living without feeling guilty about it.

"The future"

Even though you're moved on, you'll still be hit with a flash of grief everyone and again. When that happen, yourself time to look at photo or listen and cry- and ignore the people who say. "You should be over it by now" because that's just not true!.

How to deal  with yourself:

• honor the person
• express your emotions
• take action.

what do you say to your friend, relative? keep it simple is best tell them I know I can't truly understand how you're feeling but I'm sorry is that it gets better for your loss, and I hope.

In memory of my father and my friends are recently pass away rest in heaven. @ 2012-2013

thank you for good memories with me. I truly miss them so much tears! \m/_

Love,Channy \m/_

"UGLY"

My poem is 

Being ugly means to be different.

It means to feel good about yourself.

Ugly means,

Being daring.

Just because your not pretty,

Doesn't mean you have to stay in your shell.

Get up and out,

Go show yourself.

It's ok to be ugly.

Love,Channy \m/_

"Be who are you, what you feel and say" 

"deaf people shall not marry each other"

[There was a young deaf couple in their wedding clothes. Alexander Graham Bell was standing next to the couple. AG Bell was holding a big paper titled “1884 – ‘Memoir Upon the Formation of a Deaf Variety of the Human Race’ – A. G. Bell.” AG Bell angrily shouted, “YOU DEAF PEOPLE SHALL NOT MARRY EACH OTHER!” The deaf couple defiantly ‘flipped off’ AG Bell, but they ‘flipped off’ with their ring fingers (with wedding bands) instead of their middle fingers.] 

I was horrified to find out that Alexander Graham Bell actually published a paper titled “Memoir Upon the Formation of a Deaf Variety of the Human Race,” in which he basically suggested that deaf people should not marry each other. 

Bell wrote: "Those who believe as I do, that the production of a defective race of human beings would be a great calamity to the world, will examine carefully the causes that lead to the intermarriage of the deaf with the object of applying a remedy.” His suggestions on how to stop marriages amongst deaf people were: “(1) Determine the causes that promotes intermarriages among the deaf and dumb; and (2) remove them.” *

Bell even went as far as saying this to deaf audience in 1891: “I am sure that there is no one among the deaf who desires to have his affliction handed down to his children” and he “promoted marriage with a hearing partner so that the undesirable ‘blood is diluted’ by ‘admixture with normal blood’ I cannot imagine how livid the deaf community must have been.

Of course, the angered deaf community and advocates placed so much pressure and criticism on Bell that Bell decided to have Dr. Edward Allen Fay do a study on deaf marriages. As a result, Fay found out that about 10% of deaf parents had deaf children That rendered Bell’s arguments to be invalid. Still, Bell had already done so much irreversible damages to the deaf community. (Not to mention his stance on supporting Oralism, on focusing on destroying ASL, deaf clubs, deaf schools, and many more)

I cannot imagine what it was like for deaf people at that time period. I am sure that many of deaf people’s family relatives were persuaded by Bell’s words against deaf marriages. As a result, deaf people suffered pressures from their family relatives to NOT marry their deaf partner, to marry a hearing partner instead. It is possible that, thanks to Bell, some deaf people were prevented from marrying (deaf) ones they truly do love. That is why my heart goes out to supporting same-sex marriages nowadays. Nobody deserves to be denied from marrying the ones they truly love. Nobody.

Love,Channy \m/_